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Thursday, May 5th, 2005
1:20 am	I've been a busy boy lately Well as many of you know, i've been busy lately. Spending my weekends being productive and fixing up my car. So far in the last two weeks i've reupholstered all the panels in the car, so headliner, back panels ext. and i've also replaced all the speakers minus one I couldn't get to. I replaced the old 4 inch 20 watt stock speakers with new 4 inch 100 watt pioneer speakers and then in the back I found a speaker box and put in two pioneer 4 channel 6x9's that are top of the line at a whopping 420 watts. So far the car sounds excellent and looks great. This weekend, weather permitting I plan to reupholster my seats and then i'll be done with the interior. I've also been doing exceptionally well in school lately i've been getting straight A's with my usual "you don't have to be perfect, just better then most of the kids in the class" strategy. Needless to say I haven't studied for any tests yet and i've gotten all A's on them. My hardest class by far is Advanced 2d computer animation. We are using this software called toonz. It's professional software that they used to make things like rugrats the movie. The part that makes the class hard is that the teacher requires all work to be drawn by hand. I haven't drawn by hand in quite a while. I've done 3 or 4 assignments so far and that is 50 or 60 drawing total and i'm getting better. I remember all my basic drawing tricks and remembered my old standby for drawing people, "how to draw marvel heros." God it's nice to have a book that tells you how to do things easily. I bought the rock on DVD and Sean Connery is still the coolest. My favorite quote from the movie... "DO your best? Losers are always whining about their best. Winners go home and fuck the prom queen." -Sean Connery Oh and my Gps and I have finally stopped fighting and she is talking to me again, it's nice to have her back in my life. Directions are so much easier when she talks to me. I think thats about it. Life's great i've cleared out most of the things that weight me down and I haven't looked back. Maybe i'll start dating again or get a job somewhere or something like that, life is way too easy right now, I need to introduce some difficulties or i'm gonna start thinking that everybody has it great all the time. Current Mood: creative Current Music: God gave me everything - Mick Jagger (Comment on this)
Monday, April 11th, 2005
3:28 am	Just another day I went for a nice drive today. I find myself smiling for no reason at all. Smiling at the breeze or the sunshine, a song on the radio. Sometimes I even break into a chuckle without knowing why. I don't know the key to happiness because, it's not a locked door. Happiness is equally available to us all. It's us that gets in the way of it. I think we don't want to be happy sometimes, and I think that we take matters into our own hands to make sure we aren't sometimes. I admit to stir up shit everyonce in a while and I pay for it. But you can't always just blame yourself. Sometimes it's true that things come about that make you unhappy. Events like a death and people that are just bad, but that's unavoidable. I'm happy but i'm happy because i'm thankful for what I have. There are a few things that I want, I want to find that special girl and fall in love and be happy and ride off into the sunset. I've come to realize though thats not something I can make happen, actively trying to find that girl will just make me tired and bitter from all the heart ache. If I am ment to find her I will, things have worked out well for me. I have faith that it will work out there too. I think that when I find her I will know because you have to not have something to truely understand how important it is to have it, and i've had my share of heartbreak so when I find that love i'll appriciate it. But there is always a but, i'm not going to go looking for her, i'm tired and I think that accepting what great things I have now is what is key. If she comes along tomorrow great, but if she doesn't i'm still smiling. So I think I was right before when I said I am gonna choose to be single for a while, don't want to find fake love. I want love yes, but you can't seek out love just like you can't catch the wind it's something that comes to you. So i'm gonna enjoy being single and not worry about it. If your not happy with your life, maybe the farthest you should look is the mirror, that's what I found to be true in most cases. It's good to smile Current Mood: happy (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 6th, 2005
3:07 am	life's a peach Life's a peach. Not a worry on my mind. Got straight A's last semester in some semi hard classes and frankly only tried hard enough to meet the requirements but I guess I am special and my worst is others best? Any way schools a walk in the park, I need to get ahold of my guy with the software connection I need to pick up a 11 dime piece of software. Anyway things are good made 200 bucks and once again I am amazed by the life I lead in one day I have hung out with close friends, greaser dudes with naked chick tattoos that seem to look up to me (don't ask badass biker type guys look to me as a god for some reason, i'm not a badass or at least I don't think I am) and i've hung out with affluent rich upper crust who also look to me as something i'm not they see me as a tome of all knowledge or something interestinly enough. Yeah i'm smart and I know alot of facts but jesus the internet is not just for porn an opinions. And I gave a guy a dollar today to pay for bus fair so I did a good deed. Life is so easy now that i've gotten the clutter and negatives out of it :D. So if you want to know my secret to living such a happy care free life while working all the time and being constantly busy. Just relax and have confidence in yourself that you know what you know and people will respond to that. Also get the bad things out of your life, doubt, fear, booze, drugs, maybe even people those don't help you and they may comfort you know it's really just jumping out of the plane with feather pillows they are soft and nice and comforting now but in the end they were the wrong choice and just make you fall faster. You may not agree but then again I don't care it worked for me and i'm happy. I would love to keep going on about how great things are but it's time for bed and i'm sleepy gotta get up tomorrow for my easy anthro classes, can you believe I get credits for stuff I learned when I was 7, I could teach these classes I know the material so well. oh well night all and try stopping tomorrow and just enjoying the sunshine, or the rain what ever it ends up being both are nice. (Comment on this)
Monday, April 4th, 2005
1:56 am	spring break is over I know, I know it's sad. But i'm not gonna miss it too much, I got alot done. School is starting in 6 hours and counting... gah. Oh well. I got 2 of my 3 grades back and so far I got straight A's and those are both in my hard classes and my push over class isn't in yet so we'll see if I got a hat trick. So my schedual is: anthropology 1 & 2 from 930 to 1120 on monday through thrusday. advanced 2d computer animation 1230 till 620 on tuedays so yeah tuesdays don't even bother i'll be dead... I've decided that unless I find a perfect girl i'm gonna be single for a while and enjoy having money and no drama in my life. I realized that all the relationships i've been in have been more of a hassel and trouble then something relaxing and comforting and calming. Girls are really just to tangled up in themselves and the world they have created around them from what i've seen. Plus it seems that girls tend to be lacking for my tastes at least in my age group, I really don't want to have to choose from drunks, sluts, idiots, and ones that are taken, and combinations of those. So I think being single will do me some good, I mean it's nice to always have a 20 in my wallet now and be able to focus on myself for a change so yeah good times. But we'll see class is starting in 6 hours and maybe there will be a bunch of cute girls and i'll change my mind, but chances point to no. lifes good now and I plan on keeping it that way. And I refuse to let myself get sick, I thought I was but the inner monolog of "come on you dumb bastard, you aren't going to let yourself get beaten by a fucking virus? Get off it! Your fine, stop even thinking you may be comming down with something and if your tired, PUSH HARDER! and if you hurt USE IT!" seemed to work i'm not feeling sick and the soreness in my throat has either stopped or I have just blocked it out. Anyway I'm not sick and i'm not going to be. Oh and when you feel the pinch of gas prices, think of me i'll be glad to sell ya a moped, 170 mpg.... tempting? yeah I thought so. (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 31st, 2005
3:17 am	spring break Well lets see. So far I have done everything I wanted to do on spring break. I slept in alot, I played video games till my eyes burned, I made lots of money and turned around and spent every penny on myself because i'm worth it :P, I hung out with my friends, I got lots of work done and I got a ton of WHITE teeshirts that are really white not dingey gray or anything. Grades are starting to roll in also, so far only one class but an A in it so woo hoo there. I haven't slept much in the past couple days because i've been not sleeping at night and having to get up to work all day, but I guess a couple hundred bucks is worth it. Anyway i'm getting quite used to not sleeping I think that i'm actually training my body to run well on no sleep. Some funny stuff that has happened is my stylist I guess is what it's call because she cuts girls hair primarily, wanted to hook me up with a cute blonde that was there before me but then she was like oh wait she is only a junior in high school so I was like yeah thats not super good cuz i'm like 3 or 4 years older then her, man I feel old now. But I thought that was funny because out of the blue she was like HEY DO YOU THINK SHE IS CUTE! ARE YOU SEEING ANYONE? YOU TWO SHOULD GET TOGETHER! Lets see what else have I been up to, well i've been keeping in shape a bit doing sit ups and push ups and I still can do like 50 push ups in one burst but my arms will die, but it's still good for not being up on them in a while (like years actually) sit ups can still do 75 in a burst with out problems. I've been pretty happy lately did some spring cleaning in my life, picked out some things I didn't want and tossed them, bad habbits, this and that, just stuff I didn't want in my life, and to this day i've been pretty good to not falling back to them. A military recruiter called me at home a few days ago basically threatening that if I don't sign up by choice that in a little while I will be drafted and then will have no choice, but I managed not to break into a belittling and hurtful tyrate to make him cry for being a dirty war monger and for violating the trust I had in my school not to give my phone number to people who want to send me off to get killed. But if I do get drafted I won't run, I was born and bread to be in the military and kill, it's in my blood my dad was an army ranger, uncle was a tank commander, i've got relatives in every war even tracible back to the revolutionary war and we always lived, for the most part. I guess I will take my place in that line if I have to I mean if someone is shooting at me, i'm not going to hesitate to shoot them, but I don't believe in this war and I would hate to have to kill, so i guess any of you that god still listens to, pray that I don't get drafted, and those who god doesn't listen to, we're fucked. :P But for the most part life bueatiful right now, not a dark cloud in the sky and I intend to keep it that way. I'll be paid soon and then i'll be rich again so yay for high gas prices it makes my life better and better by the minute :D Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: the cd "make up the breakdown" by hot hot heat (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 9th, 2005
9:18 pm	yup Ok fuck it i'm getting my motorcycle fixed up and i'm gonna start riding it again because I miss it and frankly I don't have to live for anyone, everyone has their own little things that are bad for them smoking, drinking, bad relationships, bad jobs and motorcycles are mine and at least the only one i'm gonna hurt is myself and I can deal with that Current Mood: apathetic Current Music: Into the Void - NIN (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 5th, 2005
5:33 am	Fuck! I can't sleep again. All this lack of sleep is really getting to me, I just can't seem to focus. Plus I got alot on my mind right now so being frazzled from insomnia doesn't really help. I mean any more I just try to sleep as much as I can in a setting because I know i'm not going to be able to sleep for a while. So yeah I catch some shit for it that I will sleep 12, 13 even 14 hours on the weekend but in context, it's nothing because chances are I got less then 15 hours of sleep that week so far. Basically right now I got a crap load on my plate right now and i've been eating shit for days. It really is getting to me with the lack of sleep added on. I'm thinking about just busting out the heavy bag again and start sparring with it till my knuckles bleed like I used to. I need some sort of outlet for all this stress and crap. I used to be not able to sleep cuz my body clock was screwed up but now I can't sleep because I can't fucking stop my mind from going 100 miles an hour or i'm just too pissed off and riled up to sleep. I guess my problems may not be as big as other peoples in their eyes so there really is no use in complaining about them. But what I need is an outlet for the stress, half the stuff I can't even talk about and the other stuff is petty stuff like, I have to write 24 pages worth of essays in the next couple weeks on things that are not that fucking easy and I have 2 or 3 projects due in the next couple weeks. Plus my regular homework. I also have to pick classes for next quarter and fucking everyone is sick around me at my house and I really can't afford to get sick now. I also am working on this comic and yes it is for me but still it's important it's like more then a hobby or just something fun because it is actual work and if it's good enough it could add to my portfolio. so yeah i'm wound up pretty tight right now and I need to find and outlet or i'm just gonna snap. Maybe it'll be better when finals are over but gosh I really could use a good back rub right now. Current Mood: frustrated (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 2nd, 2005
1:26 am	my cousin well my cousin is ok, i was a little worried cuz she was in the hospital and almost died but she is ok she is in rehab now and so yeah. i guess if i had a wish it would be people wouldn't do drugs or drink because knowing the effects of them it isn't pretty but yeah people have to live the hard way, i guess what i'm saying is you can pick your friends you can't pick your family, and so i picked you guys don't make me worry about ya. i'm also working on an animated comic because i'm surrounded by tallented people and i'm all the tools and skills needed to make something cool so why don't i? so i'm having my friend Jeff do the art work because he hand draws very well in a comic book style then i'm gonna add color and animate them and compile them into the computer and all and right now i'm thinking up the story too but and apparently dirrecting in my head the scenes and art dirrection too but i would much rather just tell him ok this is the shot i see draw what i need and then he put his spin on the art because he has a good clean style and hopefully we will make something cool, now i gotta figure out sound which i haven't figured out very well i need to figure out how to record and get my sound good quality to match the visual. the best way to get across the idea would be to say think about a comic book that the pages are animated and the characters move and the steam rises out of the manholes and the new blocks do interesting transitions onto the page, i don't want it to be a cartoon i want something that is both basicaly animated comic book (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 23rd, 2005
10:49 pm	walking the line I'm walking the line of being sick lately i've been teetering back and forth between yucky and fine for a couple days now and i've been taking anything that can help me not get sick. I really don't want to get sick I don't need a cold or some bug i'm quite happy not having one and I don't intend to let myself go without a fight. Anyway school has been a little loaded this week. Since it was a short week only 3 days (I have no friday classes) and I have at least one test tomorrow I don't think I have anything else. I had to do all my homework tuesday night but it was less then I thought it would be so that was lucky but it was still due a day earlier then it usually is so it threw me off a bit. Plus the walking on the boarder of being sick has made it harder cuz all I want to do is rest cuz i'm just kinda acky and I don't want to be sick. And I think i have to write an essay in all my classes in the next couple weeks. Oh well I guess things are going well except for my dumb relatives but I don't want to get into that. (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 19th, 2005
1:37 am	I miss the time when I knew. My lack of words here to describe my inner thoughts to you can only be equally mirrored by the turbulence that is in my mind at the moment to describe my inner thoughts to myself. I am at a point where I just don't know. I can't talk about it and even if I could talk about it I probably wouldn't. Voicing my problems and committing them to written record will in this case only further inflame the issues I seek guidance on. So hence my dilemma, I cannot figure out what to do on my own, but I cannot seek help or guidance without most likely making my problems worse. Plus the answers I seek can only be found within myself. I miss the time when I knew. Current Mood: contemplative (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 16th, 2005
11:55 pm	I HAVE NOTHING SAY!!!! NOTHING IS HAPPENING IN MY LIFE!!!! DUN DUN DUN!!!! hahah you just read this and wasted some of your life :P (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 15th, 2005
2:24 am	in honor of valentines day So here you go I figure I should make some post about it being, well yesterday was but still being valentines day, yay for all you couples out there, (and guys I feel your wallets pain) and for all you single people out there well think of it this way, no one loves you and your going to die alone :P I guess I shouldn't mock the group I am in but who cares i'm an equal oppertunity kinda guy, anyway here is the most horrible valentines day poem Roses are red, Violets are blue (well technically they should be violet but oook), I just farted, and it reminds me of you! happy valentines day! i'm accepting porches instead of chocolates this year just in case anybody was wondering... ok yeah I know no one was getting me chocolates and they are getting me even less porches but oh well it's worth a try :P Current Mood: I feel like a dornick (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, February 14th, 2005
9:51 pm	quote of the day I have a simple philosophy. Fill what is empty. Empty what is full. And scratch where it itches.-Alice Lee Longworth (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 8th, 2005
11:55 am	sleepy Ok so staying up till 5 am and then getting up at 9 is a bad idea, oh well. Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
3:03 am	3am and i'm not too tired Well we watched Enemy at the Gates tonight and I found myself just sitting there going hey I could do that. Also I realized that everyone I know is sick in some way and that I am the last surviving member of the I haven't gotten sick club which is unsettling to say the least. My car seems to be doing great again and do to the recent rains it got a much needed bath. I myself am not doing so great because after having to jack up the car to change the tire I totally fucked up my arm and shoulder. So learn from my mistakes the jacks that you pump are much better then the shitty twist kind that come with cars. I guess I pulled a tricep and something in my shoulder upper back reason because i'm getting a big knot up there (anybody willing to work out the kink with a back rub?). I have a paper due thursday on what I consider art. I have to visit somewhere that displays something that I consider art more specifically and write about the experience and all that. I have been thinking about going to a classic car place or a custom motorcycle shop but today the teacher used those as examples and went off on how students are unoriginal sometimes and now that he said that he is gonna get like three papers on how cars are art, and I was like crap now what am I supposed to do. In short I am trying to figure out a new idea quick so if you guys come up with one let me know, ya'all know me pretty well so you could come up with a pretty good idea of what I would like. I tried to rig up my tv in my room to my surround sound for my computer but that didn't work as well as I planned I think I need to spend some time brushing up on the manual because some of the stuff pertaining to this tv is a little screwy at times and so maybe the manual will shed some light on the matter. I did manage to rig it up so I can connect things easily like my xbox so that is a plus. Well I think thats all the stuff thats been happening lately that is worthy of committing to record so yeah. Oh and ladies Jude Law only plays one character no matter what he isn't a great actor, he range is about as wide as a sheet off paper turned sideways. Just admit it he's just a pretty face with an english accent (even when he plays a RUSSIAN or commie bastard what ever you want to call it.) Current Mood: sore Current Music: the open road song - Eve 6 (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 6th, 2005
4:09 am	stuff Well lets see I went and got 3 more dvd's: Idle Hands, Enemy at the Gates and Mars Attacks. I'm planning on picking up Stigmata, disturbing behavior, blade 1 and 2, the 9th gate and a few others escaping my mind right now when I get some more quid. hehe sorry. Anyway I fixed my car again so no more spare tire on it, the valvestem was bad so yeah it just went flat. I also finished my sword, it's aluminum and it has a black handle with nylon twine wrapped around the grip painted black, just like that line of cars and I sharpened it so it was sharp enough to cut me but not sharp enought to be like razor sharp because well who needs a 4 foot long razor sharp instrument of death hanging on their wall. And on a small side note, I hate being single. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 3rd, 2005
12:24 am	here's some crap that happened recently i created many works of arts in the back of Ana's car in the foggy windows during Ana, Steph and my expidition for cardstock, and i still think she should of left on the ones she made me erase.. i see no problem with honk if you want to see my boobs and bush can suck my balls. then my car broke down at her dorm so the 3 of us couldn't ride home in my car so no when my car gets fogged up it will say i'm horny in my back window to me, thanks Ana but thats hardly revenge i only see good comming of announcing that :P. so then i had to get the starter replaced which i got back today and yes this is now out of order, it cost me about 260 for a new one and normal service. do do do do do do do, there now that we are back before the car being repaired i made a sword and screwed up my wrist so now it hurts, i got an A on my Arts ideas and values class and i don't really remember anything else happening but that will hafta do for now so i will report later when more shit happens (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 23rd, 2005
4:38 am	random thoughts at 430 am why do i write in one of these if only 2 or 3 people ever read it, expecially since i talk to them regularly, what great insight or recollection of the events of the day would i hold special for here that i wouldn't tell everybody one of the many times a week i see them? oh well it's 430 in the morning and in case you are wondering, no nothing special happens late at night, there are not underpants nombs that sneak in to my room, there are no monsters under my bed that come out to play and no i do not gain any magic powers from the hours of 2 to 7. So why do i stay up so late you ask? well i don't know, but if i have bad dreams again like last night i don't know how much i would want to be asleep. anyway i guess i'll lay down and try to rest ya'all will probly be trying to talk to me tomorrow seeing if i want to do something. just so people know i bought braveheart, hackers and titan ae on dvd (hey i put them in alphabetical order on accident) so if you guys want to watch them let me know. Current Mood: i feel off (Comment on this)
4:00 am	you should all download this song because it's cooler then you :P Artist: Soundgarden Album: A-sides Title: Blow Up The Outside World Nothing seems to kill me no matter how hard i try Nothing is closing my eyes Nothing can beat me down for your pain or delight And nothing seems to break me No matter how hard i fall nothing can break me at all Not one for giving up though not invincible i know I've givin' everything i need I'd give you everything i own I'd give in if it could at least be ours alone I've given everything i could To blow it to hell and gone Burrow down in and Blow up the outside world Someone tried to tell me something Don't let the world get you down Nothing will do me in before i do myself So save it for your own and the ones you can help Want to make it understood Wanting though i never would Trying though i know it's wrong Blowing it to hell and gone Wishing though i never could Blow up the outside world (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 19th, 2005
5:00 pm	You're tearing me apart!!! :P You scored as Punk/Rebel. </td> Punk/Rebel 56% Goth 56% Ghetto gangsta 50% Drama nerd 38% Stoner 38% Prep/Jock/Cheerleader 31% Loner 31% Geek 31% What's Your High School Stereotype? created with QuizFarm.com (1 Comment |Comment on this)