Current mood:

frustrated

Fuck!
I can't sleep again. All this lack of sleep is really getting to me, I just can't seem to focus. Plus I got alot on my mind right now so being frazzled from insomnia doesn't really help. I mean any more I just try to sleep as much as I can in a setting because I know i'm not going to be able to sleep for a while. So yeah I catch some shit for it that I will sleep 12, 13 even 14 hours on the weekend but in context, it's nothing because chances are I got less then 15 hours of sleep that week so far.

Basically right now I got a crap load on my plate right now and i've been eating shit for days. It really is getting to me with the lack of sleep added on. I'm thinking about just busting out the heavy bag again and start sparring with it till my knuckles bleed like I used to. I need some sort of outlet for all this stress and crap. I used to be not able to sleep cuz my body clock was screwed up but now I can't sleep because I can't fucking stop my mind from going 100 miles an hour or i'm just too pissed off and riled up to sleep.

I guess my problems may not be as big as other peoples in their eyes so there really is no use in complaining about them. But what I need is an outlet for the stress, half the stuff I can't even talk about and the other stuff is petty stuff like, I have to write 24 pages worth of essays in the next couple weeks on things that are not that fucking easy and I have 2 or 3 projects due in the next couple weeks. Plus my regular homework. I also have to pick classes for next quarter and fucking everyone is sick around me at my house and I really can't afford to get sick now. I also am working on this comic and yes it is for me but still it's important it's like more then a hobby or just something fun because it is actual work and if it's good enough it could add to my portfolio.

so yeah i'm wound up pretty tight right now and I need to find and outlet or i'm just gonna snap. Maybe it'll be better when finals are over but gosh I really could use a good back rub right now.